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It's no secret that I've been creatively *blocked*, for quite a while now. The inspiration to write is *there*, and I never have any shortage of ideas. But something is definitely getting in the way of the follow through.
Truthfully? It sucks.
Couple that with the fact that I've been having some wicked-ass nightmares for the last week, and I've finally come to the conclusion that I've got some major issues that need to be dealt with, before I can move on to do anything else. This happened once before, and the purging/theraputic writing helped, immensely. So, the decision has been made to try it again.
The only problem? This shit is painful. And it is very, very hard to write from *that* particular point of view, again. But, you know, I'm making the effort. It has resulted in some serious crap writing, and many panic attacks...but this is *supposed* to be good for me, so I'm plunging blindly forward.
Maybe when all is said and done, I'll get my drive back. Either that, or I'll just lose my mind completely.
In other news, I had a fantastic allergic reaction to one of my meds yesterday. This resulted in itchy red spots, and an order to run to the ER if it got any worse. Which, thankfully, it didn't.
I'm ridiculously tired. I haven't been sleeping very well lately, which shouldn't be too suprising. I'm feeling *more* antisocial than usual. And this is a really bad time for feeling antisocial, because there are many, many things that need to be done, and soon.
Everything is so fucked right now.