It's no secret that I've been creatively *blocked*, for quite a while now. The inspiration to write is *there*, and I never have any shortage of ideas. But something is definitely getting in the way of the follow through.
Truthfully? It sucks.
Couple that with the fact that I've been having some wicked-ass nightmares for the last week, and I've finally come to the conclusion that I've got some major issues that need to be dealt with, before I can move on to do anything else. This happened once before, and the purging/theraputic writing helped, immensely. So, the decision has been made to try it again.
The only problem? This shit is painful. And it is very, very hard to write from *that* particular point of view, again. But, you know, I'm making the effort. It has resulted in some serious crap writing, and many panic attacks...but this is *supposed* to be good for me, so I'm plunging blindly forward.
Maybe when all is said and done, I'll get my drive back. Either that, or I'll just lose my mind completely.
In other news, I had a fantastic allergic reaction to one of my meds yesterday. This resulted in itchy red spots, and an order to run to the ER if it got any worse. Which, thankfully, it didn't.
I'm ridiculously tired. I haven't been sleeping very well lately, which shouldn't be too suprising. I'm feeling *more* antisocial than usual. And this is a really bad time for feeling antisocial, because there are many, many things that need to be done, and soon.
Everything is so fucked right now.
At this moment in time, you cannot see two inches in front of your face, outside. That would be because the weather folks- who were wrong every time they opened their mouths in the summer, and yet they've been *right* every time they've opened their mouths since winter started- predicted a nice little winter storm, and it kicked up about two hours ago. Started off with some rain, which melted some of the build up of snow and turned my back yard into a lake (I am *not* exagerating)...and the rain quickly turned to sleet, and then snow. It's just unreal outside right now.
Just got word from the folks, who both had to work today, that they're currently being sent home. This means I'll be keeping the phone close by, waiting to make sure they get home safely.
This *also* means that I'm praying the electricity doesn't go off. There have been four lurches so far, where I was expecting to be plunged into immediate darkness and silence. So far, each time, the power has rebounded, but I'm not taking any chances. I've got every *extra* electrical appliance in the house turned off, I made a pot of coffee which I'm drinking as fast as I can, and I've got the emergency candles out, on my desk. Along with matches, and a flashlight. I'm really not holding out much faith that the power *isn't* going to go off, sometime tonight. If you all could see the weather outside, you would understand where I'm coming from ;-)
Update: they both got home ok.
There is a certain situation that is bugging the hell out of me. Not that anyone cares, I'm just stating a simple fact. A certain situation, and certain people...people who should have the decency to fade from view, but who obviously don't. They are free to do what they want, of course, but I'd just like to let it be known that 1- I don't trust them, 2- I'm not the only person who doesn't trust them, or believe a word that comes out of their mouths and 3- they can stick around as long as they like, they can try to insinuate themselves into certain people's lives- and it isn't going to make me suddenly change my opinion of who and what these people are.
And that last paragraph should get an award for being vague, yes?
I'm still sick, for the record. And when I'm sick, I tend to get cranky. Think about that fact seriously, before trying to start any shit with me. 'Kay?
And last but not least, what *always* makes me feel better? Why, games, of course! Here is the briefest of brief updates on my most recent aquisitions:
Digimon Battle Spirits
Dragon Warrior Monsters II: Cobi's Journey
Dragon Warrior Monsters II: Tara's Journey
Final Fantasy Tactics Advance
Hamtaro
Harvest Moon III
Tactics Ogre: The Knights of Lodis
Love Hina Advance (translated)
Lunar Legend
Medabots RPG
Monster Rancher Advance
Pokemon Card Game
Pokemon Puzzle Challenge
Pokemon Ruby
Pokemon Sapphire (translated)
Pokemon Stadium
Pokemon Snap
Shining Soul
Sonic Advance
Super Mario Advance
Yu-Gi-Oh Dungeon Dice Monsters
Zone of Enders: Fist of Mars
Go me. Must start searching for more, just *because*.
Well, I think the move from greymatter to movable type was fairly painless. And blogamp is going to amuse me for a long, long time.
Current news: I'm sick. And I'm tired. And I'm really, really cranky.
It's never going to stop snowing.
I'm never going to get all of my Photoshop brushes back.
I still hate the people behind Sim Enhancer, with everything I've got.
And really, I'm not in the mood for babbling tonight. Maybe tomorrow ;-)
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